No where going Ramblings.....A note to a friend.....
written on Monday, Jan. 19, 2004, @ 12:02 P.M..
Things will be so much easier for me if I would have taken the other path...You know when your wishing something from our past your in trouble....
I was 15yrs old and had a field trip to a job agency in NYC(school's Idea to give us an Idea about how the Job market is)...they had us take a couple of tests to see what jobs were compatible to us....Well after I took that test and did the taped interview....I was given a letter to sign and send to the places I was compatable with....
Well Century21 called me and wanted me to take their training....Stupid me....instead of going ahead with it...didn't want to miss my hang out time with friends....
Who knows where I will be right now if I would have done it....Things could have been different right now....
Oh I don't regret my kids....I regret the other choices in my life....I regret not being able to type faster....I regret not listening to my mom when I hooked up to my ex....Either way....Whose ever children I had....Would have been raised right....
I have alot of regrets in my life....I guess looking back at everything....I see where my mistakes started....I was so pigheaded then....How stupid was I not to follow with the training I was going to receive....They had picked me....Now I just think no one wants to hire a person who hasn't been able to hold on to an office job....
I have practiced my typing here at home....I have taken Typing since I was in the 8th grade....My typing just freaken sucks!!!!
Sorry to complain about my life like this....I just figured I need to really think about my life since I am 32 and have 2 children....I need to find some type of direction....at least so I can suppress my depression in some way....
*Leslie*...thanks for kind words in my notes....At first I didn't know what to think of your words....But after reading it 3x....I know now what I have to do....I will let you know soon what it is....Thanks again sweetie....let's me know I'm not alone.....
TTYL