An Everything Update.....
written on Monday, Feb. 09, 2004, @ 6:55 P.M..
Wow...didn't realize I haven't updated in so long....If it wasn't for Kristi sending me a note...I wouldn't have noticed...
I have been so out of wack that I haven't really felt like myself....I have been very moody and have not felt like much lately....I know it is depression....but don't know what is causing it this time...
I really feel like the more i try to keep myself busy and not think about the depression....the worse it is...I try so hard trying to fight it that I tire myself out...
I found out a couple of days ago that B/F will be going for surgery next week monday....He is excited about it since it has been 7 months since he has worked....Things between us have calmed down....We have always had the gift to talk things out....But just wish I didn't have to be a snoop to find shit out on him....
The kids are doing great....School wise things are wonderful....But they drive me up the wall at home....My son has started hiting again....He is still talking back and misbehaving....My daughter is still the clingy one....But not as much as before....I guess that's a good thing since it was starting to annoy me....
Family life here is really stating to take me under....My monster from hell that lives upstairs still can't and doesn't know how to control her kids...I sometimes wonder if she was adopted...None of us are that way with our kids....We are all more responsible with our kids then that....She has been to the specialist twice....According to the medical records from NJ....her baby might have cystic fibrosis(sp?)....So they are trying to gt her to do the amnio to find out for sure....
Her son(the oldest) wants to speak to his social worker to find out what he can do about living with my or my parents....he says he doesn't want to stay with her anymore....It hurts me when he talks like that....but there is nothing I can do about it....because there is no way I am taking him in unless she gives up her rights....He's lived with me before....and just when things get really good for him here she yanks him right out and he is bak to being a grown up instead of who he should be....A CHILD!!!!!
Well I think I should end this update since it is turning out to be a book...I know I have to keep my chin up and try taking care of myself better...So my dear friends....Just know that I am trying....
TTYL