Kids, B/F, family and me.....
written on Monday, May. 17, 2004, @ 10:54 P.M..
Life in the hell hole....let's see.... my kids are doing great....They have been very excited helping us choose where we want to move to...They are ready for the change....but the one question they keep coming back to is.....Why can't we move near the boyz??? they still don't understand they b/f hasn't found a job there....But hopefully something will come up....
B/F hasn't heard from his kids in a while...and he is taking it out on everyone....it has been since mid April since he has had contact with them....and he is really worried...His mom and said she did hear from them since the last time he called them....but has only received emails from his ex since then.....but no other info....
ME....are you ready for this one??? I am still the freacken wreck you know me to be....my counselor keeps asking me why i can't just get up and go and take care of myself...and all i can say....I only have one mother and one father in this world....if anything happens to them....i will never forgive myself if i let it happen....
Those that know me.....know that i have been struggling with problems here at home.....stuff that run from my demon sister and her kids.....all the way up to my oldest brother....i normally could handle anything....but something happening to my parents....i can never deal with that....right now....my dad has been having pains in his stomach....it could be anything....but he has had ulcers in the past......and all this stress isn't helping him any....and he won't go to the docs to find out for sure if it is that...all this stress can excelorate(sp?) his asbestos poisoning.....
My mom....she is in such a depression....my mom and dad are constantly argueing....they rarely have any time to them selves....her and i can't even escape to our every other week lunch because my demon sister has complained that it isn't fair that she and her kids can't go anywhere....
This is hurting me so much...i miss the way things were before they were forced to bring her back here....she swore that she would never come back here.....and here she is causing more pain and suffering on this family....
I wonder if my parents could sue.....
TTYL